I think i really need to learn to feel comfortable with being unnice or unfriendly to people. I need to learn how to reject people. I need to learn how to lie (at times if need be). Otherwise, my money will keep going down the drain.
I was with Beti at PS a few days ago. A lady came to me outside PS and started by asking me whether i think ex-prisoners should be given a chance to study. I said sure, why not. By then, Beti had already escaped to one side and sat there, watching / waiting for me. Anyway, that lady told me that she is an ex-prisoner wanting to go back to studies and she needs some money. She showed me a Mickey Mouse notebook and said that was made by her – very hard, time-consuming, tiring, etc. She hoped i can donate a $10 to her. After talking to her for a few minutes, checked her pass (kononnya some project), asked her about government support in this etc… and, yes, i finally took out my wallet and took out a $10 note for her. I believed in most of the things she said, except that she made the Mickey Mouse notebook because it really doesn’t seem ‘handmade’. It just seems like an ordinary notebook that i can get in any stationary shop.
Argh… My cash flow for these few months is already negative! Why did i still give her my money! I just don’t know how to say ‘NO’. Well, right after this lady, i was walking towards Beti and… another guy came to me and asked “How should i address you?”. Argh… i really felt 哭笑不得 coz i know he was going to do the similar – get some money out of me. After asking me about my occupation, income etc, he was trying to demonstrate to me that saving in a bank doesn’t help me generate much return. And he was going to continue talking about how better it would be if i save my money with his company. I guess Beti couldn’t take it anymore so she came and rescued me by telling the guy “Sorry, we’re in a hurry!”. Oh how brilliant~! How can i forget about this excuse. I usually do use this excuse to get rid of these people when i am really rushing. But that day, i totally forgot about it – to be specific, i forgot that i could actually lie. Lol.
There have been a lot of similar happenings. I’m also donating to Singapore Cancer Society every month coz of pretty much the same reason (but it’s my dad’s money though!). And i have also continued my facial treatment package coz i failed in rejecting! Well, i really tried… but i guess those people are good in sales, in pushing people and i suck in saying ‘NO’. So i had again succumbed to it.
HELP!
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